The popular saying “sealed with a kiss” is quite literal between my husband and I. We fell in love through writing letters.
My husband, Steven, has been wanting us to share our personal correspondence on our blog: Real Love Letters. I’ve struggled for months about doing this. I’ve been indecisive. I find it difficult and a bit odd to articulate into words exactly how I feel.
You see, writing is our main form of communication. Our intimacy is shared with one another via letter writing.
Sharing our precious love letters with the world has surfaced an intimacy issue within me. It’s difficult to be so far away from Steven, and of course there is the absence of actual physical touch between us right now. We’ve been married for two years. Unable to hug and cuddle on a daily basis. Unable to let our sweet kisses linger. Unable to share that special bond of physically uniting as one.
Writing is intimate for us. And we have been doing it for so long that it is like our way of making love, figuratively speaking of course. But also, there is real truth to it, too.
I had to ask myself, have I been uncertain about sharing our love letters because of my own ego? I did some inward looking, and it seems that I’ve been stuck in fear. My ego looked for areas of insecurity within me, found them, and latched on.
Writing is all we have of each other right now. If we share our personal letters with the world, will it take that only source of intimacy away from my husband and I? Will our love become a joke to people? Will we forevermore be sharing our love life with the world before experiencing it ourselves?
But then I take a closer look at our marriage and how unique and different it truly is. It is unlike any traditional marriage out there. Steven and I have an incredible love to share. So, it’s time to embrace that reality and stop fighting it.
My husband and I are from two different worlds, and we are living one beautiful life. He is in prison behind bars, and I have lived my life inflicting self-imposed bars. Love brought us together. And now it is time to let the world into our little love bubble.
Real Love Letters – Every shared word will be sealed with a special protective kiss that our story will inspire you, while still respecting that it is very real and dear in our hearts as we open up this platform for sharing our letters.